It has been a few days since I took the HIV test. Nothing has changed, I’m still going about my daily routines.

The test was just a simple procedure. But from this experience, I learned that it all comes down to one’s behaviour.

During the pre-test counselling session, one of the most important things the counsellor said to me was that even if the result of the test is negative, it does not mean that you are safe from HIV the next time.

I went for my HIV screening at PT Foundation. A few days beforemy test, I logged onto their website and search for information about their Anonymous HIV Screening. All I had to do was make an appointment on either Tuesday 7pm-9pm or Saturday 3pm-5pm. This is to ensure that you will have a slot. Locating the centre was a tad more challenging.

I was a ball of nerves while I waited to do my test. Basically, each HIV screening should include a pre- and post-testing counselling session. As the waiting and result of the screening can be quite scary, these sessions are meant to give assurance and provide support.

Upon entering the room, I was given a form to fill and a number. The forms contain questions about my background and HIV knowledge.

The counsellors were kind and gentle with their questions. Mine really guided me through the form I just filled, and he made sure I understood the purpose and outcome of this test.

By then, I was really worried. Thousands of “What if’s” started floating in my mind. Before the actual pricking on the finger to get blood for the test, the volunteer attending to me explained how the test kit works. The rapid test lasted less than 10 minutes, but I had to wait 15 minutes for the results and post-test counselling.

It seemed like such a long wait. When I saw my file, I wanted to grab it and read the results for myself. I didn’t imagine death looking at me directly but you get the picture. The fate of my future was staring at me point-blank.

When it was time for my post-test counselling, I went numb. I refused to speculate and just wanted to let the truth hit me in the face. When the counsellor took out the test kit, I imagined that my result was positive.

I’m glad I took the test, not just for my own knowledge, but it had made conscious that I need to be a responsible partner. HIV does not discriminate, and the way to curb its spread is to take precautions. I would definitely encourage others to take a HIV test because it not only save lives, and it sure has made me look at life from a different perspective. I appreciate my life, as it is.